Thoughts

Duffy showing off his blue eye!!

Duffy and I had our 5th class last night and it went well although all the dogs seemed distracted and Duffy wasn't as focused as he has been--maybe it's the phase of the moon? Anyway, the instructor gave us extra things to do because Duffy is so smart--thank goodness one of us is!! Hahahahaha!! So while everyone practised a stay and front, she had us try it with me turning my back to Duffy and saying 'Front'. At first he didn't want to break that stay but with me waggling a treat behind my back he did come and I enticed him around to the front.  We will keep working on that. Next week is the last class, the 'exam' and graduation. We will get timed for the exercises, get points for how many sits, for instance, that we can do in 30 seconds, and there will be other fun suprises, apparently. Most other dogs and owners are doing okay: the golden lab puppy was with the wife last night and it's clear she does a lot more work with the dog than her husband does; the younger girl and her rescue brindle colored Boxer-German shepherd mix from Saskatchewan are doing really well with her dog a lot more focused and learning the commands well; the mini dachshund learns what he wants and if he wants to; the Bouvier is a big wooly mammoth puppy and isn't learning too much and I think the owners are not too happy; the little black curly haired dog of some type doesn't come to every class, and consequently they are behind; and the older man and his brindle colored mixed boxer, maybe shepherd, and who knows what else are learning nothing! The instructor worked with them quite a lot last night but later, the owner was back to his usual ways of trying to control his dog.  The dog is on the aggressive side and very dominating, the other dogs don't like her very much, and the owner should have just gone down to the casino and spent his $149 there for all the good the class is doing for either of them. Oh well!! His money!!

I think there must be some sort of cosmic upset going on right now, like sunspots or something, as things seem to be so out of whack.  I am very upset and depressed about the truck and the other driver being a liar.  And I'm afraid that he's going to get away with it. It was recommended to me by an aquaintance that I should get a lawyer and maybe I should. If there's a possibility of criminal charges against my husband, that would be advisable and apparently there's a 2 year  period in which a person can press charges. I just can't believe that a person would deliberately lie, when he went through that red light and caused an accident.  Some example he's setting for his granddaughter.  Soon it will be a month since the accident and we don't appear to be any closer to some resolution.

I've noticed that I am entering another phase in the grieving process--I'm a lot more emotional now than I was earlier in the year.  I think this is compounded by the fact that Mother's birthday is next week and then Christmas is coming up quickly. I always did special things for Mother's birthday, and not just in that last years while she was in the EG and of course my mother made Christmas through all the years of my youth and beyond.  Without her here, it will be so much harder to make an effort.  My dad was never a part of holidays very much--he was always having an attack of neurosis when it was Mother's birthday and was usually a real jerk and the same thing would happen at Christmas. So it was Mother and I. I guess the first year without someone is the hardest.

If we are in a cosmic disruption, I sure hope it passes by quickly!! If I have offended people or not done as I should, I apologize and I will try to do better. If others are going through difficult times too, I wish them well and send good thoughts. And I will think positive thoughts for myself too!!